lately, eversince you went away, i would find myself crying in the wee hours of the cold morning, i can't sleep. all i can do is think about you. i'm so scared without you. i feel so empty. i know you're still here, but the sense of withdrawal eats me up. i tried to keep myself busy, try to watch tv, go out with my friends. the pain would stop, but then it wouldn't really go away. it stops for awhile and come back. i'm scared to go to bed, because i never like nightmares.

i miss you. i'm so scared we would parted. i dunno what to do. i'm waiting for you patiently. i love you, more than anything in the world. i just dunno what to do anymore without you in my life. forgive me if i have been so emotionally attached to you. i feel so lonely. and to know the fact that we can't be with each other as often, it kills me.

i dunno what to do to make my paranoia go away. i'm so disturbed. i'm not okay. and all i need is you.

please don't leave me. don't forget me. don't give up on me. don't let me go.
i love you b :(

Friday, October 09, 2009