oh man, finally, this is my 100th post. congratulations to me? yay? lol

to bigfoot,

i'm really glad you did spared me some time just to reply to my emails. and no, i never meant to be separated from you. i never wished to. the only thing i wanted was us to be together again, but i doubt it'll ever happened. i wish you were reading this. i wish you knew how i felt. i wish you would change your mind and still give me another chance so that we can be together. but i doubt it'll ever happened. not anymore. i don't understand why you make both of us seemed irreconcilable. you told me i'm forgiven, i knew i hurt your feelings. does karma really stays forever? i miss you. i love you. forever.

i have to keep my words. so now, its about upgrading myself to a better quality. adjust and modify, when i'm done, i'll be good as brand new. i've closed those doors already. life isn't all about love, and what's these talk about love? somehow i felt rather disgusted with myself, for making love such an important thing in my life when it could be ditched for awhile and focus on other significant things in life. but i'm all human baby. we all yearn, die, do silly things to satisfy our soul to the fullest of the desired. can't be blame much but we can control and ignore/avoid.

i have to learn how to say NO now. no to unsignificant creatures and their stupid desires. its not about them fucking shits anymore, its about me. its my time. so until then, i will keep on and on and on telling you and myself,

i'm gonna rise to the stars and you'll be the one watching me from just afar.

Thursday, March 05, 2009