all i can do is watch you leave
i wish i could just make you turn around, turn around and see me cry


your used to be "bestfriends", what happened to that?
smile but don't smile. we can't do anything anymore. ask yourself this, would everything be the same if your friendship came back? doubt so. and it totally didn't turned up the same. everything felt so awkward.

fuck life. fuck life so bad.

do you miss your bestfriend?

i don't know. mine was because we can't communicate, and then *poof!*

GONE

how about you?
the same?


i still tell her i missed her, loads of times, but i think she took it on an account of a mutual acquintance kinda thing, oh god, take me back to the start will you?

you said, "it hurts when the one she prioritise isn't me anymore. because it was me initially in the first place. me. me me me"

so you, you my friend, you are so happy to be around your babygirls now. wow. geez


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ok this is random, but i just wished that tipah don't have to leave us for the boarding school. darn. don't go will ye? we all love you pah, very much










so anyway
cut it out will ye pedro mate? your blog has always been about these and that, your friends and your babyboo. you have been so cryptic, like monyet says. so pessimistic. tskk



i'm so sorry for what my blog had become, but this is me. this is what i'm going through everyday and i thank god


eh no i have not
and baby i'm so sorry, its not that i don't trust you at all, it's just that i think humans like me only start to trust their partner even more stronger, better, when doubts comes and mess around their head

and i'm not embarassed any bit to call myself paranoid just because i keep telling you i love you, sorry, i just think they're never enough

sorry for my imperfections, my love, i just have words, sentences, phrases and actions just to keep us going on better. forget those admirers that have been playing around the sky, i'm still here. my flaws never stop persuading me to convince myself that i'm not match for you. rubbish eh? all these negative influences. i'm fighting hard for what i want here. right now in my life. yes, all i want is you, just you. to stay true to you, sacrifices around, adding on to the patience and sincerity i'm willing to work on every minute, will you marry me? lol too early

i love you, you won't leave me. nyehhhh i'm talking to you now. i'm alright. i'm fantastic baby

thank you love :]

Thursday, June 12, 2008