glee? glisten? glitter? gloominess? flopped? midst? still breathing?




so, all these juveniles being juxtaposition together, what the hell did they do?

all these kindred spirits, did they get together to pour some magic dust for the love that is gone? did they? but do they need these magic dust? but wait, who's these they who needs the magic 'love' dust anyway? what the fuck are those damn bloody pixies doing?



what's wrong with us? why? is because we're too young? no i don't think so cus it's all so cliche to tell yourself, "oh well, i'm too old to know what's right and what's wrong"



did you repent, boy? did you learnt a lesson? or did you laugh at what you did; just smiled and giggled and give a smirk without knowing how silly you have been? what the hell do you think you're doing? you think it's funny?
or would you just put your head down, deep inside you're crying, telling yourself you're remorseful, but wait, no, not really remorseful, since there's alot of voices everywhere, here and there; mixed emotions. all you wanna do is just go home, lock yourself up in your room, close the curtains, just snuggle into your cosy bed and ponder through your sleep?



and my god, you, you beautiful girl, where have you been? how did you get lost? did you know how irrefutable you have been? we could all tell you that you're young, but why did you do it?

i could see sadness in your eyes, what's happening sweetheart? when did your heart go missing? you could have just let it go, you know, you could just let the rain wash everything away, you could have just snuggle to mummy and let her sing a lullaby for you, you silly beautiful thing. i know you need him, i know how badly you wished you could have him, but baby, don't force it in you. i'm sure you wouldn't want him to think that you're naive and vulnerable so baby, get your both feets on the ground and tell yourself, "it's his loss, not yours"

"this circular motion is all we do, i'm so sick of going back and forth with you, you should have been happy to have me"


there's a mark you leave boy, like a love heart, carved on a tree. their skin is like a map, of where your heart has been and they can't hide the marks, but it's not a negative thing. so they let down their guards, drop their defences, down by their clothes



they're learning to fall, with no safety nets, to cushion the blow



we all know it come, it come to walk between us and when it's over, it walks away. it bloody did walked away. so is these a conspiracy? who's mocking me? who's mocking you?

hell no, but who's loving you?



would you think it's over? or would you still let it run all over your soul, creating pains for it you have thought that its a whole lot of ignominious acts, billions ignominy for you, and yet, you let it imbricate throughout your whole miserable life



what's troubling you baby? the glum on your face, i would die just to hug you, i would cry just to know the shattered pieces that's been pouring all over your soul, is hurting your body, every blood running through your veins; it always has been that one person trying to stream in, i wouldn't wanna let you feel the pain, i wouldn't, but where have we been? why can't we talk? why did we have doubts? if you tell me you love me, come back and haunt me, oh and i would rush to the start

"cause if you only knew what i felt for you. you would have held on tighter, fought a little harder, been a little smarter and now you're gonna miss my love. and one day soon you'll see, you'll reach out for me.

you had a keeper, didn't know how to treat it right. should have felt a little deeper and now you're gonna miss my love"

[breakdown], period

my hugs and my kisses, you know you're gonna miss it. and while you're tripping on the love we could have had, i'm moving on, i got to and ain't no looking back



answer me, anyone, god, you there?



but no, god, god you can't take me back to the start, i can make it all happen again, all clean and sweet, and you, don't you ever speak as loud as my heart. you might get lost again, and i, i bruise easily sweetie

it's so misty in here, the fogs are blurring my visions, and if i never take these leap of faith, i never know



anyone who, can touch you, can hurt you, or heal you. anyone who, can reach you, can love you, or leave you



what about my flaws? didn't you know i have insecurities? okay fine, we all do, but individually, i'm scared, you make me scared. i don't want to lose you, those 3 words, it's been stalking me. all i can do is try, to believe it but i got doubts, why would you love me? they're better, i think so.

why am i talking all these? what the fuck? no, it's not some kind of mockery nor is it some kind of some twisted old raconteur stories. i have dreams, not small ones, big extravagant dreams, which apparently i'm working on. i'm a puzzle, yes indeed. who wouldn't want to sail with someone on a ship together, big journeys of life all the way

did you forgot that you can see so many beautiful things around you?

i.loved.you







okay then peeps, outta here. only those who get my drift will know what i've been crapping for the past 10-15 minutes of my post. much love

Saturday, March 01, 2008